Archive for March, 2008

It’s becoming evident that i…am still very young.

March 28, 2008

do not get me wrong. i am neither immature nor juvenile. though i am only 24, i am also not talking about my age. What i do mean however, is that the idea of youth as it is associate with the obsession for figuring out who one is and how one can change the the world. And by this very point, i must, and can only call myself, young.

i read the news everyday and place myself in the situations of the subject. i ask myself, “how would i have acted? who was in the the right, the wrong?” i believe I’m a relatively smart, well-round, moral individual with a great commonsense, who can solve any problem, or at the very least, have the most intelligent point to make to the conversation. and this…is the down side of my youth, the part that i’m slowing trying to train.

Less stubbornness, more flexibility. less preaching, more conversation.



March 25, 2008

i’ve been in troubled relationship for awhile now. it seems like all i do is give and give. i’m understanding, tolerant, and have unconditional love for her. i always come to her defense and tell people why she’s great. but recently…its been getting harder. This one way relationship has drained me so much. i still love her but im so tired. tired for all the constant bickering, the hypocrisy, of having my voice silence. i dont have freedom anymore to do what i want, go where i please, do as i see fit. i feel trap…and why? i have not done anything wrong. if someone can just tell her to please open up her eyes and go back to how she use to be; a warm, caring, loving country once again. then again…maybe i’ve been the one that’s been blind all this time.

please someone explain to me how…

March 17, 2008

1) CEO’s of supposedly troubled companies in troubled industries still manage to net ridiculous sums of money. we are talking about hundreds of millions of dollars to one man when apparently the company is in billions of dollars of debt. people are losing jobs, the economy is suffocating, and yet it’s never ending.

2) Bush and Chaney have not been impeach yet? no need for explanations here.

3) I’m still waiting on that check from BDI, Ryan, and the government? i need some money!

4) I manage to snag up the prettiest most awesomely funny and cool chick in the world? cause between u and me…i dont deserve her.

5) though people are relatively smart (least the ones i’m around), how can it be that cumulatively, we’r all so stupid?


March 10, 2008

there’s a new show on E! entertainment television. It’s call “Pop Fiction” and it’s Pop Stupid. Here’s the premise of the show; celebs, tired of the paparazzi, decides to make up stories of their own and “Punk’d” the media!

ok…does anyone one else see the absurdness of this?

first off, if you want to get back at the media and have them stop hounding you, simple, stop being a dumbass and giving them tantalizing stories to cover.

secondly, you’re only feeding the fire. papoz dont care if your stories are real or fake. they’ll shoot whatever and sell it if they can. By the time a story is discover to be false, the photographers are already paid and the magazine already sold.

third…it’s a waste of time and not to mention, money. These celebrities, to fake the stories and get all the the media hype around it have to go out in public, be in disguis, and pretend as if they’re “secret agents”. It would have been a lot simpler to just anonymously phone TMZ.

because of all of this, i can only make one assumption about these celebrities that go on the show; they’re bored and they want attention (ok, two assumptions). I mean what other notion can be had from a show that its aim is for more celebrity empowerment.

more tales of woe

March 7, 2008

money does not buy u happiness. it buys u peace of mind.

barely surviving, scraping by, and earning your keep, builds character. it’s the fundamental basic for being a decent person. so ok i got that checked…now how bout living a carefree life? one in which i don’t have to be worry about my security and my finances. i promise that i will maintain my work ethics and never forget the value of a dollar.

i guess i’ll keep working at it.

bring it!

March 7, 2008

So i was watching “Real World/Road Rules: The Gauntlet” last night and before you start to make fun of me, know that i only do this for research purposes only. I am fascinated at the concept of gathering hot bod, short fuse, emotionally handicap 20-somethings together and give them free alcohol and minimal supervision. Then they must compete in moronic challenges where in the end of it all, they give out a ridiculous sum of money. Now i’m not here to judge the morality of all this, or even to criticize the corporations that are involve. I’m simply curious about one small information: “Is there a on-site therapist?”

If any of you have ever watched the show (or any others of the likes), you will notice that there are always some sort of a “confessional room” and on-site medics. But there never seem to be any therapist, psychiatric, or a priest anywhere around! i understand that these shows are all about escalating the drama, and from that standpoint, having the mentioned would not be good for business. but shouldn’t something be said about if a person ask for help, they should receive it?

Imagine a documentary about crack addicts, wait better yet, plain ol’ alcoholics. now for the film maker, it’s best for them to see and study the behaviors of their subjects. to observe how their mental and physical bodies begin to decline and it’s effects of the people around them. If a subject chooses to get clean, the film maker follows that process as well. They see if they can succeed and comment on their ordeal. The parallels between this and MTV’s The Gauntlet is the notion of the “Observer”. Someone that watches, comments on, but does not touch. this principle is fine by me. there can be a million shows like that and it would not bother me. What does yank my chains is that if a subject ASK for help, looks like they need it and wants it, then its the obligation of the observer to do something about it.  It seem like the majority of these kids need this help, and it doesn’t seem like MTV is gonna do anything about it.  Since the show is obviously edited maybe they do provide the necessary services, but somehow i doubt it.  but since i dont know, i’ll leave it at that.

All i hope is that they do have someone around that can help these kids once/if they’re ready for it.

6 words

March 3, 2008

how to, one day, i will